Guess what I am doing right about now...

A conversation recorded on Twitter yesterday for the masses to follow.

Coy_Pink Thank you, @CelticFrog. Your HNT inspired us to try out fisting last night. Fun, fun, fun! about 3 hours ago from TweetDeck

chaoslost200 @Coy_Pink WOAH! Can you pass on a link to this fantastic HNT? And how was your fisting fun? about 3 hours ago from web in reply to Coy_Pink

Coy_Pink @chaoslost200 Here's the link to her HNT:http://tinyurl.com/cj8ujw We had a great time! I'll try to write something up. about 3 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to chaoslost200

RapunzelRed @chaoslost200 @Coy_Pink OMG!! I have made my mind up... we have to try this!! about 3 hours ago from web in reply to chaoslost200

Coy_Pink @RapunzelRed Um, YES! It was intense. about 3 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to RapunzelRed

chaoslost200 @coy_pink @rapunzelred Nice HNT and thanks for helping to make up Rapunzelred's mind :) about 2 hours ago from web

RapunzelRed @Coy_Pink It's always been on my "Gotta try" list and it's been moving up slowly but surely. LMF does have big hands though.       :-o about 2 hours ago from web in reply to Coy_Pink

chaoslost200 @RapunzelRed not big, long fingers... I think it's doable :) But who am I, just the fister... most Def not the fistie ;)about 2 hours ago from web in reply to RapunzelRed

capnmarrrrk @RapunzelRed @chaoslost200 @Coy_PinkWait..what? about 2 hours ago from TwitterFox in reply to RapunzelRed

chaoslost200 @capnmarrrrk Fisting my good sir! about 2 hours agofrom web in reply to capnmarrrrk

Coy_Pink @RapunzelRed Just go slow and use lots of lube. Really, if you can push babies outta "there", you can fit a hand in. :-) about 2 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to RapunzelRed

capnmarrrrk @chaoslost200 Wow, Hard Core about 2 hours agofrom TwitterFox in reply to chaoslost200

RapunzelRed @chaoslost200 Well I love your long fingers... shall I make a little extra time in my day tomorrow? :-) 43 minutes ago from web in reply to chaoslost200

chaoslost200 @rapunzelred please do :-) 29 minutes ago from txt

Hitachi question?

Am I the only one to feel as though my clitoris becomes an almost  psuedo-penis, becoming so engorged and swollen, after masturbating with the help of the Magic Wand?

It makes getting dressed afterward ......... well ....... WEIRD. Not sure if I enjoy the sensation of my swollen clit encased in my panties or if i am annoyed with it. And if I am wearing jeans - WHOA!!!

Which reminds me... any one out there tried pussy pumping?

Cum, cum, cum again...

I have survived. 

My children have survived. 

My relationship with LMF is intact. Even managed to squeeze in a couple of rendezvous with him during the hecticness of adjusting to the rigors of full time classes.

;-)

My favorite stolen moment had to have been when he was withholding from cumming. 

At first I was a whining brat about it. Wanting him to cum. Wanting him to orgasm. To release. I love it when he comes. I feel it is my reward for a good job to feel his dick spasm, to hear his sighs and moans, to have him hold on to me tightly as the pleasure rolls over him, through him and engulfs him.

But as I came to grips with his exploration and challenge he had set for himself, I began to enjoy our time together without the focus being the orgasm. There was not frenetic pace set in order to reach that "ultimate" goal. 

The blissful smile on his face as I looked down at him as I rode his cock filled me with such pleasure. His hands explored my body almost gracefully as I continued to rock my hips, meeting his rhythm. Being so much more in tune with one another as I was mindful not to push him over that edge. Wanting him to reach his goal... whatever he chose that goal to be. 

Cumming myself, my pussy throbbing around his dick as he was still inside of me, hard time and time again feeling the intensity of my own orgasm amplified. 

Delicious.

Finding new positions together. Loving the new angles and depths, speeds and variations. My favorite (and proved again last night to be a keeper) was me on my back, he pulls my legs up and rests my heels on his shoulders and instead of beating away at me from a distance, he leans in close and folds me in half, moving slow and savoring the closeness of our bodies together.

Fan-fucking-tastic.

And then finishing myself off with a Hitachi while kissing and holding on to him for dear life.

Fan-fucking-deliciously-tastic!!

Fucking Anxiety Attack

First one in almost a decade. 

Fuck this fucking shit.

It finally happened

I walked in and threw back his covers expecting to see his PSP being ferreted under his covers, not him frantically trying to cover his hard-on.

Jeppers Creepers! 

My eldest son was caught masturbating last night. 

I quickly dropped the covers back over him and said I was sorry. 

His younger brother whom he shares a room with, asks why he isn't wearing pants. 

The eldest replies he always sleeps without pants. 

The younger brothers says, "But you didn't have on underwear either!". 

I didn't hear the reply because I had to go across the hall and deal with the younger cubs. 

But as I am walking back into the hallway, I hear the younger brother say, "Yeah, you're right. It does feel better on your butt to have nothing on".

When LMF came over last night we talked about it. I am thankful that he will talk about this with me about my son. My cubs' father would be useless so it's nice to have a male perspective that is a more sound one. 

My cubs know ALL about baby making, the technical sides of sex and the mechanics of birth. (Hazards of having younger siblings born at home as well as having a mother who is a birth professional.) But I realized that I have been lackadaisical in covering the aspects of masturbation and the pleasurable parts of having sex and intimacy.

So I have to have another talk with him. About masturbation. AUGH!

I'm curious though-

• How old were you when you started masturbating?

• Did you try to keep it secret- cleaning up after yourself meticulously? Or were a sloppy masturbator- leaving your props or cum catchers out?
  

• Did you ever get caught by your parents? siblings? relatives? friends?
  

• Did your parents ever talk to you about masturbation?
  

• Does anyone have any words of wisdom to impart as I am readying myself to sit down with my boy?
  

• Ohhhhh and does anyone have any classic Playboys with beautiful, curvaceous women on the pages rather than the silicone bimbos flashing their twats for monkey spanking material?  
  

Getting the boot

Last month I started joining LMF and friends, Breve included, during their Monday night tradition. Quizzo. Great fun. Challenges your mind. Makes you feel like a complete dolt when you miss something. Fucking brilliant when you get it right.

When Breve and I went to the bathroom mid game, I noticed that the walls were chalkboard and in the stalls and I wrote "For a good time - www.rapunzelsmusings.com". I can't remember if Breve and kept talking about it when our team mate, Jane Austin, came in and she overheard us or if I told her about this little smutty corner of the web that you now find yourself looking upon but her reaction was priceless. She got a little flushed and asked me, "Whyyyyyyyy a sex blog......???"

Ummmmm........ because I like sex. Something I can indulge in and be totally hedonistic with. Something I can push my physical, emotional and mental limits with. Something that I truly take pleasure in. Something that might allow others pleasure in. Something that I know entices my LMF and makes him want to fuck me like the good little slut I can be and yet also make love to me tenderly. Because I want something that is just for me.

I didn't say any of the above. I told her that she probably shouldn't look at the blog if she ever wanted to look at LMF the same way. And that was the end of the conversation in my book.

2 weeks later the three of us were kicked off the team. The 2 boys of the team claimed it was because of the girls and their territorialness. I asked one of the boys what the deal was and he said  (and I quote) "we have gotten over most of their problems, which can for the most part be blamed on the baby jesus".... 

I laughed thinking that it was absurd to think that my blog had caused the break up of the team because Breve had her own issues as well as LMF arguing with the Alpha female (whom I never met but that would have been FUN!). 

But lo and behold, this past Monday, at Quizzo (after the mind fuck of my blogging orgy/psychology class wanna have an orgy)... Breve informs me that Jane Austin holds no hard feelings and that she doesn't lay blame on other's poor choices on Breve or LMF.

SEX broke up the team. My raunchy writtings! HOLY FUCK!

The only think I could say after Breve got done and finished with a "Fuck her!" was- 

"Ohhhhh, I 'd love to fuck her. Put on a strap on me and I'd fuck her doggy style calling her my cunt. Dye her mousy brown hair blonde and she can be my cunt!"

So why do my musings make people so uptight that they feel the need to cleanse themselves of my presence? Why does sex threaten people?

Too bad I didn't have the chance to Tell Jane Austin or the AlphaFemale that I was a Sunday school teacher!!!

Psychology 150

I sat in the middle section in the 3rd of 4 rows. The rest of the class filed in. We sat and waiting on our professor to come in and call role.

And as the names were called off I sat there stunned... half of my blogging buddy's names were called.

the Beau

TBK

CapnMarrrrk

Bianca

BDiddle

and

Coy_Pink  

How badly I wanted to stop the class and proclaim it Business Time 

and get on with the orgy FOR REAL that these people's namesakes I have envisioned previously in cyberspace...

But with it being the first class, my academic future being at stake if I pulled a stunt like that... I stayed quiet and imagined what it would be like if I reached over and kissed and nibbled at Bianca's neck and shoulder as Cap'n fucked her from behind. 

Totally perverted considering these people had never met before and there I was randomly pairing them in my head...

It's good to be raunchy.

Too bad it got me (as well as LMF and Breve) banished.

... more on that tomorrow.

My nursling...

My arms strapped down and he's over top of me, greedily drawing on my breast as he fucks me. 

Jesus, I am getting into it. 

I love it when he latches on. 

Like a hungry pup he suckles, and licks, and pulls the majority of my small breast into his mouth. 

The movements of his tongue across my nipple as he hungrily sucks makes me involuntarily thrust my pelvis into his own.  

I nearly lose my mind as he lustfully pulls off my breast with a flourish of tongue movements. 

The feeling was so similar and almost as good as when he licks at my clit with slow, deliberate, broad strokes with his tongue.

He met me 6 months after my youngest weaned... 

But I  still think that he is trying to get milk out of me at times.

Don't you just love it when things all come together?

As I was driving home after a day of errands, appointments, a lunch date and grocery shopping I couldn't help but smile as a blissful state washed over me. 

It was almost the prolactin high that breastfeeding mother get or the dopey calmness that a Xanax will deliver or the sweet rapture that rolls over you as you are deep in the throws of passion with your lover. 

I've got so much going on in my life - kids, school, friends, home life and my relationship with LMF. I sometimes get caught up in the hecticness and general disarray of everything in my life and forget to BREATHE.  It was such a sweet sensation. I was able to clearly see all the wonderful things in my life. 

First and foremost my children. It's been tough at times but they are really doing well. Especially the older ones who have had such a hard time adjusting. I love that I can talk to them and they are talking to me too. And their smiles and laughter is proof enough that things are heading in the right direction.

School... Yes, I am going to be extremely busy with full time classes but it's only for a semester and then the rewards of not having a horrible crappy (barely above) minimum wage job. I can't wait.

Friends... I have got some pretty awesome friends. Friends that will lend a hand, or an ear and be a shoulder to cry on when I allow myself to be squishy" and vulnerable. Just remind me friends... that I can and SHOULD ask for help!! You know that is one of my hugest weaknesses. 

Home life... well, hell there could are many things I could change but it's not unbearable. So I look at the positive that I have a roof over my head. And this isn't forever.

And my relationship with LMF... wow. What a turn it has taken from it's inception over a year ago... or even a few months ago. 

Now don't jump to any conclusions people, we are NOT talking about getting married for real or even moving in together or any kind of crazy shit like that. But the thought of being in a real relationship doesn't scare the fuck out of me like it once did.  I have even been able to introduce him to people as my BOYFRIEND without stuttering, stumbling or my eye start to tic like it does when I am nervous or stressed. 

And that is a big step for me.

Better than Octopussy

Blue Ring Octopus by *joshpurple-Gassy on deviantART

HNT - Best Toy of them All?

With my newest addition to my toy box, it struck me that I have amassed quite the collection in the past 6 months. 

My blue ridged glass dildo. I love fucking myself with this thing. I love it even more when LMF fucks me with it and sucks on my breasts. 

The Blu Princess. Quietest vibrator EVER! 

The lucid curves vibrator. When nubs go wrong... read all about it here.

The black bondage rope that I never got to wear shibari style. It was sacrificed so I could be tied up and deliciously totured.

The beautiful amber glass butt plug. Only used once. It was almost too big at the time but LMF and I have been working and I can't wait to try it again and have him fuck me again.

The Aneros I got for him but had to send back because it was just not working for him. And believe me girls and boys, he gave it the old college try!

The big tin of Kama Sutra honeysuckle dust. *

The under the bed restraints. *

The beautiful wooden paddle. Blonde wood that makes my ass BRIGHT red.

The Godiva truffles. Not technically a sex toy but he used them as a ball gag that one night and I haven't been able to bring myself to eat one otherwise... it feels almost wrong not to eat them when sexually ramped up.

And now my Hitachi wand with both attachments. I love that thing. The other night I asked for him to fuck me from behind in the ass and I got so into it while buzzing my clit with that wand that I actually told him not to move so I could fuck his cock. It was hot.

I wonder if who'll agree that the best sex toy is one's self. I mean I love all my appliances and toys. They can spice up things. They can make solo play more fun. They can make couple play exquisite. But if you aren't sexual yourself the toys are wasted. I love sex. The carnal act as well as the deeper connections it can forge. I think I am the best sex toy of all for myself and those I play with.


Hell I know it!


* They were technically given to LMF, but I still have rights to play with them whenever I'd like.