What the hell do I do with myself?
There is a part of me that wants to be wild and crazy.
There is a part of me that wants to be a hermit and withdraw from all social activities.
There is a part of me that abhors the idea of dating.
There is a part of me that things that being a unicorn would be a lovely idea.
And there is a larger part of me that wants to stop compartmentalizing my life.
And there is a larger part of me that wants to stop compartmentalizing my life.
For my entire relationship with LMF, I kept my kids out of it.
I am thankful I did because I don't know how I would be dealing with things had the mancubs become attached to him and would now be questioning why he wasn't around any more ... but with every part of my social life I have not involved my children. They barely know those I call my friends.
Partly because I am super protective of my cubs and don't let just anyone in their lives, partly because it's just inappropriate to bring a kid out to the bar (!), and partly because I wanted time for me.
There is more to Rapunzel than the oversexed (soon to be undersexed) nymphomaniac though.
First and foremost I am a bad ass mother bear.
From now on I think I need to balance my time with my cubs and friends more equally. Yes, I want to have nights of wild and crazy fun but I think many of my friends would also be open to a tater gun shoot out and pot luck lunch at the homestead.
And if they aren't... they can go fuck themselves.
4 comments:
Unicorn? Is that not what you are ol' elusive HBB?
Your children are part of you, and anyone who can't deal with that isn't going to be a good friend/match.
The more you can include them in your life the less you have to compartmentalize . Also the less who they are becomes and issue because they are more comfortable in those situations and can act appropriately. Why can't you take them to a bar? I see other mothers do it and those children tend to be more well adjusted because it is no big deal.
While treating them like adults may make them grow up to fast, it also makes them better adjusted, better behaved and better able to interact with adults.
As someone who can be intolerant of children some times. I find the ones who are kept from life and separated from the adult world are the ones I have the most difficulty with. The ones who are treated like peers and included in the adult world are the ones I enjoy the most and want to be a big brother too. Ah fond memories of going out for Sushi with my friends 7 year old who would tell me more about sushi than I ever could know and always amazed the waitress that he really did know what he was ordering.
Hawker- I have awesome, intelligent, loving, quirky and cool kids. Ask anyone who has met them.
I won't bring them to the bar because I find it inappropriate. If I am at a bar, I am there for *me time*. Not trying to balance being a mommy in a social setting. I think my oldest 2 cubs would be total rock stars if I were to bring them to our Monday gatherings... but the younger two, it would be a taxing event for all involved.
And as for the HBB status... who knows. I am still trying to figure out which is right nor me - celibacy for the moment or total slut mode. Until I do, I have my trusty Hitachi to keep me company.
As long as total slut mode doesn't turn you into the Rapunzel kind. I kind like you the way you are...multifaceted & soul intact.
You go that other route and I will personally come to Carolina and kick your ass. Not the kind you'd enjoy either! ;)
Rapunzel kind... I think I just snarfed.
I am unique to myself and would be the best little slut, inviting men and women into my tower... and then throwing them out unceremoniously.
I'd love to see what kind of ass kicking you could dispense that I would like. Then again I think about kissing you in the rain would be equally delightful. ;-)
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